It was one of the saddest decisions I've ever made.
There are many reasons why I needed to leave after two seasons, but the clincher was change. Change that was squeezing me out. The other, better reasons, I had long just tried to live with.
But the silver lining is this: I realize that for someone who thinks they have a problem living in the moment, I sure have enjoyed the every moment I spent vocally swirling and twirling inside the most profound music ever written on this side of heaven: the music of the Baroque and Renaissance.
Will I join up with another choir? Perhaps a friend's ensemble that only sings during the Christmas season? Or--dare I dream--the large choir that will visit Carnegie Hall in May?I don't know yet. Who will have me? What kind of time commitment am I willing make?
These are not questions that a homeschool mom can answer hastily.
So for now, I'll have to learn to be content to strap on my headphones and live in the past with Bach, Buxtehude, Rameau, Purcell...
11 comments:
That is a tough decision. But the thing is, if you're singing to the Lord, you don't have to be in the choir; you can do it anywhere. Well, you may get some strange looks if you do it anywhere! How funny the timing of your decision though. My wife just rejoined the choir this past week.
I know God will give you something to replace it. He will.
I'm sure you made the right decision and that the Lord is happy with you, as I know He is everyday. :)
I realize that I'm not playing in your league here. Really, I don't think I can even SEE your league from here. However, as a Sweet Adeline since time immemorial, I know whereof you speak. And I feel your pain.
Those decisions are hard, aren't they? To join or to leave. I chose not to get involved in anything until last year. And that was when the door came swinging open in front of me! And I really don't know for how long I will be able to, but for now while I have my husband's support and feel I'm to be there, it's right where God wants me. Again, who knows for how long. We have a concert in October and December, and I'll let you know the info.
Keep appreciating music as you do, sing when you can, and use it for HIS glory, and He will bless you!
Praying that you now find peace in the decision. I know that it did not come lightly. God will lead you to where you will sing next. Blessings my friend.
I am enjoying your music, #5 is beautiful.
Those kinds of decisions are so hard...but God will give you other musical outlets, I'm sure....
(And yes, those kinds of questions cannot be easily answered by home school moms!) ;)
Oh my. I can feel the import of a decision like this...I've made them before and even when I know they're right they leave me with a heaviness that hangs around my head and heart for a while. Praying God's peace on your decision.
I'm sorry, GB. I know it must have been very hard to come/be led to such a decision.
I don't even know anything about the music which you love so much, but if that is the kind of stuff you have playing for us here, I think I like it. Sometimes I leave your window open after I've surfed away just so I can hear more.
May God fill the gap with something rich with His goodness!
Wow! What a hard decision for you I'm sure. I know how much you love music. God will honor your decision, and he will give you something in place of the choir.
Let me say, I agree with you when you say
" These are not questions that a homeschool mom can answer hastily."
I will add, that there are many questions that mothers of all kinds must not make hastily. We struggle with these types of things constantly. Society tells us "why don't you have your children involved in more activities? What about sports, dance, the list goes on." Not easy decisions, but God is faithful to guide us along the way.
You are in my thoughts and prayers as you start you new school year. God Bless.
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